1. It's Live ! ;
    09 Oct, 2015
    It's Live ! ;
    So the fact that I finally made my blog public after 5 whole years like still blows my mind . I guess I wasn't ready to let people in and see the madness that goes on in my mind sometimes , lol . But now , I actually want people to know how I operate . What makes me tick . What I'm into and what I'm not . What absolutely blows my mind . Why I'm me .. How I look at it , when people view a person's blog it's like they are all looking at that person naked ... completely vulnerable with nothing to
  2. 3 AM Thoughts ..
    09 Oct, 2015
    3 AM Thoughts ..
    The only good that has come out of me still being up right now is knowing that it is pay day and seeing my phone light up saying my money is in my account because a nigga was broke . I keep telling myself that one day my bank account will agree with my lifestyle and it will , just be patient young grasshopper .  Besides that .... I really don't know why I am still up . No good ever comes to my mind when I'm up at this time .. Especially when Drake is lowkey playing in the background right now .
  3. 1 AM Thoughts ..
    09 Oct, 2015
    1 AM Thoughts ..
    Honestly , it's seriously time to let go of the past and move on .. It's doing nothing but hurting you and holding you back baby girl ..
  4. Emily ;
    08 Oct, 2015
    Emily ;
    I really can’t believe that’s it’s been 244 days since you've been gone … I think about you everyday . My cousin got her permit today .... Instantly made me think of you and how excited you were to take on the world . You are truly a gift from God . One like no other . I didn’t know you for very long and it sucks that it has to stay that way , but you were just absolutely amazing . Your vibe & energy could make any bad situation positive again . Seeing that beautiful smile throughout camp was
  5. Forever In Paradise ;
    06 Oct, 2015
    Forever In Paradise ;
    Sad to hear that you're officially gone ... I really don't want to accept it , but I really have no other choice . Another one gone too soon , rest in paradise Bailey . You were such an inspiration to everyone you crossed paths with . Prayers continue to go out to your family ❤
  6. Basketball ;
    06 Oct, 2015
    Basketball ;
    It's officially basketball season and I know I am super pumped about it . But , I just wanted to let all my wonderful friends and family know that I am officially a member of FIU Women's Basketball team this year . To ease everyone's excitement .. I am not playing this year , instead I am helping manage the team ... I went to walk out tryouts because it's mandatory for every team to have one , but they were already full so they offered me a manager position to stay in the loop with the team . I
  7. -_-
    04 Oct, 2015
    I will never be impressed by anything the Jenner girls do ... they've been handed literally everything to them .. I saw a Twitter post that was like "Kylie Jenner just bought a $2.7 million house , what were YOU doing when you were 17 ?" Uhm , like what , why are you trying to make me feel inadequate ? I am going to school ! I am getting an education ! I'm just trying to live my life ! Like leave me alone .
  8. Bet You Didn't Know ...
    02 Oct, 2015
    Bet You Didn't Know ...
    Did you know that you actually can never forget a face ? Every single face you've ever seen during your life gets stored into your memories , and gets used up for later . For example , in dreams your brain can't just make up a face . Every single face you've seen in your dreams , you've seen somewhere once in your life . And those strange nightmares you've had of those terrible demon-like creatures ? You've seen them around before too , you just can't remember . You don't want to remember .
  9. Be Patient ;
    01 Oct, 2015
    Be Patient ;
    You'll become financially stable . You'll get that work done . You'll finish that work for class . You'll get that degree . You'll get over your ex . You'll find the right one . Everything in due time , just be patient .
  10. My One Request ..
    30 Sep, 2015
    My One Request ..
    Please don't cheat one anyone .. because they will never be the same . Aside from the trauma , you'll affect their future relationships and cause them to develop severe trust issues against the people the come in contact with . It's wrong and it's evil and it's not fair when someone looks at you with happiness and brightness in their eyes and you hurt them in ways they'd never hurt you ..
  11. 15 Different Kinds Of Love ;
    26 Sep, 2015
    15 Different Kinds Of Love ;
    • Infatuation - loving feelings towards a love object that are largely based upon fantasy and idealization (instead of experience). Often when partners get to know each other, infatuation diminishes. • Romantic Love - an abiding love for a partner with whom you feel passion, attraction, caring and respect. • Eros - a passionate love usually involving sexual feelings for a love interest. • Compassionate Love - feelings of warmth towards a friend with whom you love to spend time with. •
  12. Things I Wished I Realized Earlier ..
    24 Sep, 2015
    Things I Wished I Realized Earlier ..
    25 things I wish I realized while I was still in high school .. 1. That zit on your cheek literally does not matter . 2. Skipping class one time will not ruin your entire life . 3. The boy you’re trying so hard to impress will mean nothing to you in a year . 4. Bring coffee to school and ignore people who make fun of it . 5. Bring a snack , too . Don’t care if people hear you eating in class . 6. Being popular isn’t and will never be something that seriously defines who you are . 7.
  13. Love ? ;
    23 Sep, 2015
    Love ? ;
    What is love ? Are your palms sweaty , is your heart racing , and is your voice caught within your chest - it isn't love , it's like . You can't keep your eyes or hands off them , am I right ? It isn't love , it's lust . Are you proud , and eager to show them off ? It isn't love , it's pride . Do you want them because you know they're there ? It isn't pride , it's loneliness . Are you there because it's what everyone wants ? It isn't love , it's loyalty . Are you there because they kissed you or
  14. "I Love You"
    20 Sep, 2015
    "I Love You"
    "I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are , and that I do not wish to change you into someone else . It means that I'll love you and stand by you even through the worst of times . It means loving you even when you're in a bad mood , or too tired to do things I wanna do . It means loving you when you're down , not just when you're fun to be with . "I love you" means that I know your deepest secrets and don't judge you for them , asking in return that you don't judge me for
  15. Athletes ;
    19 Sep, 2015
    Athletes ;
    Athletes date other athletes to have someone motivate them when they can't believe in themselves . Athletes date other athletes because they both know what it feels like to be too tired to talk on the phone late at night . Athletes date other athletes because they both know what its like to chase a dream . Athletes date other athletes because they don't need anyone that's going to hold them back .. Get with the dream or get lost .
  16. Guy Best Friends ;
    16 Sep, 2015
    Guy Best Friends ;
    I WANT A GUY BEST FRIEND .. Someone who will hug me tight when I'm down and beat up the guys who hurt me . Someone who knows every single detail about me and makes me laugh until I cry . Someone who I can completely be myself with and won't cause so much damn drama . Someone who I will eventually fall in love with .. & someone who will eventually love me back .
  17. Pablo ;
    13 Sep, 2015
    Pablo ;
    Rest in paradise Pablo Colas . Prayers go out to your family and all your friends . You were such an amazing young man . I'm glad I got to meet you and see how much of a shining star you were . You'll truly be missed
  18. No Girl ..
    11 Sep, 2015
    No Girl ..
    No girl wants to start over with a new guy . . . Meeting his family . Telling her secrets . Giving her body to someone new . She wants the boy she's been riding with to get his crap together and make it right .
  19. When I Die ;
    10 Sep, 2015
    When I Die ;
    Please please please , don't come to my grave and sit there for hours telling me how much you love and miss me , because those are the things I wanted to hear when I still could hear ..
  20. I'm Not ;
    07 Sep, 2015
    I'm Not ;
    I'm not anyone's first choice . I'm not anyone's favorite . People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I'm special to them , but I know there's someone they will always choose over me .
  21. What I Really Want Right Now ;
    25 Aug, 2015
    What I Really Want Right Now ;
    I really want to sleep with someone .. Not sex , just sleep . I want to curl up , legs and arms a tangled mess . The sound of their breathing singing me to sleep . Their hands caressing me . Awakening in the early hours of the morning because they moved so slightly and my body notices their cold absence . Cuddling up & sleeping peacefully . Waking up to the sum coming through the curtains and lighting up their sleeping eyes . Yawny kisses and warm hugs . I want it all .
  22. It's Scary ;
    14 Aug, 2015
    It's Scary ;
    It's scary to find someone that makes you happy . You start giving them all of your attention because they're what makes you forget everything bad that's going on in your life . They're the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep , just so you can start and end your day with a smile . It all sounds great to have someone , but it's scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take all that happiness away too when they go .
  23. I Don't Just Want Sex ..
    06 Aug, 2015
    I Don't Just Want Sex ..
    I don't want sex , I want the things that lead up to it ; the slow and passionate kissing , then the pulling closer , the neck kisses , the grabbing , the biting , heavy breathing , grinding , the pauses while you catch your breath , feeling each other .. Oh my . Then sex .
  24. If a Girl ..
    29 Jul, 2015
    If a Girl ..
    Nigga , if a girl wants to talk to you every minute of the day , wants to talk on the phone to hear your voice , wants you to send her pictures because she likes seeing your face , wants to introduce you to her friends and family , willing to travel distances for you , wants to smother you with affection , waits for you no matter how long , sticks by your side no matter how much wrong you've done .. Like dude , she freaking loves you man . Don't freaking waste a good girl like that .