1. -_-
    18 Nov, 2015
    Pissed doesn't even describe what I'm feeling right now honestly . It's 2:01 in the damn morning ! I stepped out of my room to take my laundry out of the dryer . I go to empty the lint into the garbage can , but when I turn around the garbage can is completely gone . Only thing there is the lid . There's a random bitch asleep on my couch . The living room is trash . There's shit everywhere . They didn't even bother putting their wine glasses in the sink . Left them all over the fucking counter .
  2. WTF . .
    18 Nov, 2015
    WTF . .
    Its 12:53 and there are still people in my house who don't even live here . Go home . It's a freaking school night . I have class at 9am . I'm trying to study for this test in the morning and actually trying to go to sleep at a decent hour than normal for me . So I need you all to just shut the hell up and go home . Turn off the lights in the living room and the kitchen and leave . I don't care about the weed brownies . Or the dick you constantly talk about that you don't get . Or how good your
  3. Today ;
    17 Nov, 2015
    Today ;
    Today was a much better day . Even though yesterday's post counted towards Sunday night . I still had a better day then I did at school on Monday . Yesterday was just a long day . MWF are usually just long overall . No worries .. the end of the semester is slowly approaching around the corner . I will be out of school for a whole month . . so I can just sit back and relax for a bit . I really need it . But not in this damn apartment . I refuse . ANYWHO .. today was pretty productive . Even
  4. F M L . . ;
    16 Nov, 2015
    F M L . . ;
    Five simple words . . . I . CANNOT . STAND . MY . ROOMMATES ! Like ugh ! I knew we had problems ... but after this "talk" we had they're so full of crap . Never have I ever been surrounded by so much pettiness . Like its unreal to me . How one week we're out partying and having a good time . To completely not talking to one another . But yet it's my fault . Everything is my fault according to them . Really all I can say is wow . Yeah , I'm hurt . But it's seriously whatever . Thank you LT for
  5. Storm ;
    15 Nov, 2015
    Storm ;
    I got a new puppy today . His name is Storm . The CUTEST thing ever ! He's a black Pitbull and Labrador mix . A couple months old ... not exactly sure . But all I gotta do is ask his previous owners . She'll tell me . He has my heart already . I'm really glad I got him . They say diamonds are a girls' best friend ... Well , they were obviously wrong . Because I sure have found mine <3 .
  6. Untitled . . .
    14 Nov, 2015
    Untitled . . .
    Malcolm is just pissing me off to the max right now . All I want to do is take a nap but he's having an episode right now so that's definitely not going to happen . I swear if he keeps screaming and wakes Evelyn up , oh boy . Honestly , I don't know how they do it sometimes . 13 years . I know it must be tough to deal with a child who is autistic , death and partially blind . I give them a standing ovation for everything they've been through . The sleepless nights . The constant fights to just
  7. Babysitting ;
    14 Nov, 2015
    Babysitting ;
    You know , babysitting a 13 year old boy that is currently going through puberty who also is autistic is the most interesting yet frustrating thing ever .  I've been watching Malcolm since I was 15 . Watching him grow has been incredible . Only 13 years old and he has the strength of a grown man .  Still can't get over that . But I love him . He is actually pretty freaking smart . Communicating with him is probably the most interesting . Since I'm still learning sign language and that's how he
  8. Thoughts of the Day ;
    13 Nov, 2015
    Thoughts of the Day ;
    Today was a pretty decent day . Back in Palm Beach County for the weekend . Babysitting my little brat tomorrow .  But I'm crashing at her place tonight . These people are like my second family . Evelyn is now 8 and I've known her since she was first born . And fat . Oh, I missed her so much . She's an angel but a demon spawn at the same time . Reminds me of myself sometimes .. Oh I love her , lol . I think I'm going out tonight ? I think ? Not quite sure about it yet . We shall see . Listening
  9. Promise To Myself ..
    13 Nov, 2015
    Promise To Myself ..
    I made a promise to myself that I'm going to try to write on here daily again since writing really does help me .  It feels good to just let everything out and not have to worry about what someone else might say . To face their criticism . Rejection . Hurt . Bitterness . It's better for me this way , that's all . Goodnight .
  10. 12AM Thoughts ..
    13 Nov, 2015
    12AM Thoughts ..
    Okay I'm feeling a little better now . A little . That bubble bath was life .  The steam was >>> I wish I could put emojis on here .. I'd add the heart eye emoji . Like four of them . One day they'll make the upgrade . Then life will be complete .  But until then I'll sit here on my bed eating Nerds , on FaceTime with Jalen and finish writing this post . There is so much going on right now .  I'm finally caught up on my school work . Well kind of . Still a little behind in my classwork for
  11. Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts.
    12 Nov, 2015
    Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts.
    I have so much going through my mind right now.  It hurts.  Like I don't even know where to begin .. All this frustration I have built up inside me. I don't handle myself very well when I'm frustrated.  I can't even type this post right without making a spelling mistake .. thank you Google Chrome and your auto-correct for looking out for me.  Why must practically everything go wrong for me at the same time ? No job . I have a C in one of my classes .. about to be two . The guy I'm really really
  12. ...
    12 Nov, 2015
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    31 Oct, 2015
    ​Today ; October 31st 2015 , is my SEVEN year mark since I got diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer . . Once you're at your lowest , bald and constantly being pointed at , talked about , stared at ; you learn to not really give a crap about what people have to think about you . Live your life and be who you are . Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars . Even though teenagers live the life of dreamers , that can change all in a split second . I learned so much about myself these past seven
  14. 2AM Thoughts ....
    28 Oct, 2015
    2AM Thoughts ....
    Okaaaay , so I'm back on here ..... Not sleeping or doing my campus involvement paper . Lmfao , but what's new ? As i think about it , I really haven't been involved in that many campus activities . Besides going to class or to basketball , I'm rarely on campus just because . Like really whats the point ? What am I going to do ? I'm a loner .. who doesn't make friends with random people very well . Oh well , I'll be okay . Since I'm up I should be doing something productive honestly . Ooh , I
  15. 1AM Thoughts ..
    28 Oct, 2015
    1AM Thoughts ..
    Another one of those nights again .. Just absolutely a lot on my mind for just no real reason . I went home today .. saw my family ; it was quite nice . No arguments . No hostility . Just good old family loving . I really miss that - actually being able to bond with my entire family . After talking to my parents it has me thinking if I should quit American Eagle or not . I'm like working there but at the same time I'm not .. like I barely get any hours , so if I quit it really wouldn't make a
  16. Energy ;
    20 Oct, 2015
    Energy ;
    Consider becoming the type of energy that no matter where you go , or who you’re with , you always add value to the spaces and lives of those around you ..
  17. New Beginnings ;
    16 Oct, 2015
    New Beginnings ;
    Go where you are celebrated – not tolerated . If they can’t see your true value and worth , then it’s time for a new start .
  18. Your Touch ... ;
    11 Oct, 2015
    Your Touch ... ;
    There is nothing I crave more than your touch .. Gentle and electrifying . The touch I so heavily crave . How all time stops within that moment your fingers carefully graze the surface .  Its like you are writing a novel on my skin . I love … … the way you gently touch me .   My absolute favorite is when you softly and slowly stroke my back .. my god , the chills it always tends to give me . I love … … the tenderness of your touch and how softly your fingers stroke my hands and face . You
  19. Random Thought Of The Day ;
    10 Oct, 2015
    Random Thought Of The Day ;
    I remember on my 3rd grade field trip my class was standing on a hill waiting to go into the zoo someplace downtown , and my teacher said “lets roll out” and I was like oh okay .. So I stared rolling down the hill . . . . I had to hold my teachers hand for the rest of the day .
  20. Things I Overhear At Work ;
    10 Oct, 2015
    Things I Overhear At Work ;
    So today at work I was on my 10 minute break getting a drink out of the vending machine in the mall and next to me where two of the cutest little boys I've ever seen . They're probably 12-14 . Lmfao , I sound like a total creeper , praying on young kids and what not . But no seriously , they were just cute and chunky like one of my younger brothers . And in my opinion , parents are just ruthless nowadays .. letting their children roam around the mall and other places by themselves thinking they
  21. What My Relationships Have Taught Me ;
    09 Oct, 2015
    What My Relationships Have Taught Me ;
    I learned that you can be in a relationship with someone for two years and feel nothing ; whereas you can be in a relationship with another person for two months and feel everything ... Time is not a measure of quality , of infatuation , or of love .
  22. I Think ..
    09 Oct, 2015
    I Think ..
    People who don't wet their toothbrush before using it are very strange and should not be trusted .
  23. College Be Like ..
    09 Oct, 2015
    College Be Like ..
    Housing: $3,562 Meal plan: $1,437 Books: $1,749 Enrollment: $983 Air: $3,274 Grass: $4,284 Sidewalk: $5,284 The sun: $3,381
  24. The Purity Of a Kiss ;
    09 Oct, 2015
    The Purity Of a Kiss ;
    I think kissing is the most purest and rawest form of physical contact a person could ever come across and experience . Sex is intimate , yeah , but you can have sex with just about anyone . A kiss though , oh god .. A kiss can change your world . A small touch between two pairs of lips can blow your mind . Whether it be short and sweet , or long and intense . And when you finally find someone that looks at you like you're more beautiful than a blossoming rode ... You just never want to feel