1. Unrequited Love ;
    06 Jan, 2016
    Unrequited Love ;
    People always talk about how wonderful it feels to be in love for the first time , how passionate , but innocent it is . They even talk about how horrible it feels when that love ends , and the painful first heartbreak . And they will remind you of how you’ll always love your first love . But people never talk about your first unrequited love .. How you love that person devastatingly that they make your world spin and your eyes light up , but they never return your feelings . They never
  2. My Wish ;
    05 Jan, 2016
    My Wish ;
    I wish to meet someone who sees beauty in the world even when it’s falling apart and sees beauty in me even when I’m falling apart
  3. Words for the Mirror ;
    05 Jan, 2016
    Words for the Mirror ;
    Let me love her . I’m sure there are others , but let me love her . Sure , there could be others for her , but I don’t like to think about that . She is all I want . And I don’t even want her to love me back . I just want to love her . I can love her . I need to .  I have to , because she is me , and I am her , and we are one . We are one and the same . So let me love her because she deserves to be loved . And I’d like her to know it’s okay to love herself too.
  4. What It Was Like Before Them ;
    04 Jan, 2016
    What It Was Like Before Them ;
    I guess I just never noticed how loud the sound of nothing could be . Or how cold an absence could feel . How hollow a body could seem . I guess you just don’t see how lonely it gets until you lose the company .
  5. You No Longer Scare Me ;
    03 Jan, 2016
    You No Longer Scare Me ;
    The day I left meant that you no longer have any power over me . I am not afraid . I am not afraid of you . And I will not be afraid to hold anything against you . You have no place here . You are in the past .
  6. I Don't Mind ;
    02 Jan, 2016
    I Don't Mind ;
    But you don’t understand .. It doesn’t matter that the living room is an absolute mess . Complete with the glass shards from your favorite mug , the flipped coffee table , ripped curtains , and torn pages of your , now lifeless journal . It doesn’t matter that you cause nothing but problems and worries . I don’t care if you’re bad and leave a flurry of tragedies wherever you go . There’s nothing I’d rather come home to than a mess I know is mine .
  7. 2016 ;
    01 Jan, 2016
    2016 ;
    This is getting repetitive , but I’ll say it again .. For the better . For the both of us . For old time’s sake . Here’s to the people we can’t love ,  the things we won’t do , and the promises we never keep . But who knows , maybe we’ll actually change this time around ..​
  8. Welcome 2016 ;
    01 Jan, 2016
    Welcome 2016 ;
    2016 is going to be my year...I can already feel it .. I ended 2015 on a good note . putting the people of the past where they belong...in the past . I really have been working on telling people how I really feel .  I'm working on myself...to become a better me . not letting people take advantage of me . becoming more social . focusing more on school so that I can be apart of the best of the best . not going for the guys who just want me for my body...going for the ones who want me for my
    31 Dec, 2015
    Oh boy...its New Year's Eve .  I honestly forgot all about it being today . had so much stuff going on the last couple of days that it just wasn't on my mind . First and foremost , Jose....I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your ceremony today . I'm upset about it , but I know you're at peace now . i just wish I was able to say my final goodbyes .. May your family have a prosperous new year...they all deserve it . man , 2015 was a crazy one for me . i was taught many lessons and also made many
  10. Wishes for 2016 ;
    30 Dec, 2015
    Wishes for 2016 ;
    1. Learn to love the quirks of my body...how my hair doesn’t stay in place or how my wait is uneven . Unique is beautiful .. 2. Listen to my mother...she has had more trips around the sun . She knows a thing or two and her opinion matters .. 3. Always make time for friends . Companionship is one of life’s little miracles .  4. Don’t talk to that boy who only wants your body...you deserve someone who wants your pearly whites but also your clenched jaw...someome who will hold your hand when you
  11. #DEEP
    29 Dec, 2015
    My dentist once told me that letting go is like pulling a tooth .. When it was pulled out , you’re relieved...but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was ? Probably a hundred times a day .. Just because it wasn't hurting you doesn’t mean you didn't notice it . It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while , but it takes time . Should you have kept the tooth ? No , because it was causing you so much
  12. #EffCancer ;
    28 Dec, 2015
    #EffCancer ;
    You know what sucks about surviving cancer ? watching all your friends and family who don't ... I don't think people realize how hard it is . Sadly , as often as this happens...it doesn't get any easier . I am beyond sick of having to write "rest in paradise _______"  statuses . I am so tired of all the crying and tears that are shed from the news of their passing . I really don't know how much more I can take . I understand that people die every single day from all sorts of things...but when
  13. Hurt ;
    28 Dec, 2015
    Hurt ;
    Darling let me tell you a little secret .. You know that boy you love ? He’s inevitably going to break your heart .. That best friend you planned on spending the rest of your life with ? She’s going to eventually leave .. But you know what ? That is okay .. The universe places people in your life for just enough time to shape you into that beautiful person you’ve always wanted to be .. So yes , while these people may only be temporary , the effect they have on you is permanent .. And that ,
  14. Expectations ;
    27 Dec, 2015
    Expectations ;
    Sometimes you meet people who make a big impact on your life...sometimes you let them in with no questions . You don’t ask them if they are going to hurt you...you don’t ask them of their intentions...you don’t ask them if they’re planning on breaking your heart . You just let them in because they mean that much to you . They change you...sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse . You become addicted...you dream of their cherry stained lips and their bright smile...you dream of their
  15. #CancerSucks ;
    26 Dec, 2015
    #CancerSucks ;
    Another one gone way too soon ... I seriously cannot believe this is happening . I just saw you last Sunday (12.13.2015) at the Christmas Party and you were as happy as could be . Now you're gone . At least you're in paradise now . With your fellow family members . I know that you , Emily , Pablo , Catherine , Laura , Natalie , Jose , and Michael are watching over all of us and protecting everyone you love . You will be missed dearly . I know you were fighting until the very end...and even
  16. You Are Perfect ;
    26 Dec, 2015
    You Are Perfect ;
    Darling show off your teeth each one of them the chipped one and the slightly sunny ones all of them. Because just pulling back your lips will let a little light into your belly god knows we all need that. Put on the dress you bought last summer before you got the idea that it had to fit a certain way to be acceptable because it’s not supposed to hug you like it did the mannequin. You wear it like it was made to be worn .. twirling past strangers curving around your hips flowing
  17. Confessions of the Sensitive ;
    25 Dec, 2015
    Confessions of the Sensitive ;
    Yes , I cried during the Lion King .. Sure , I still get scared of the dark .. Don’t laugh , but I still hide under the covers when I'm scared...and I can't believe I'm telling you this , but sometimes I like to cuddle with my stuffed animals and pretend it's you because that's the only thing that keeps me from breaking into tears .. I just hope , that even still you can still call me tough .
  18. 12.24.2015 ;
    24 Dec, 2015
    12.24.2015 ;
    Welcome to a place you used to call home and now is full of strangers .. The smell of coffee , forgotten faith and lost memories cling to the bronze walls...broken friendships (at least partially your fault) taste like bitter chocolate and your could-have-beens echo off the high ceilings . Upside down city lights drown in the reflection of leftover rainwater...your tires slash through them and you think quietly about the skin on your forearms . Your favorite album isn’t enough to drown the pit
  19. Am I Loosing My Mind Or ... ? ;
    23 Dec, 2015
    Am I Loosing My Mind Or ... ? ;
    Woke up at 6am today .. Had to babysit . Been having the worst headache since I woke up . Took about 3 naps already today . It's only 2:30 -_- Im here until after 7 . It's going to be a long rest of the day for me . Gabby (who's 6 by the way) is getting on my nerves . Not only hasn't she been listening to me , she has also been whining about everything . Which isn't helping my headache whatsoever . We're at Joey's Outback at the moment . It's an indoor bounce house place .  Pretty interesting .
  20. It's Okay ;
    22 Dec, 2015
    It's Okay ;
    It’s okay to be upset about him It’s okay to miss him It’s okay to mourn the relationship you had It’s okay to wish you were still with him So , shed a tear for the first time you kissed Shed a tear for the first time he held you with no intentions but to make you feel safe in his arms Shed a tear for the way his laugh used to fill you with so much joy you didn’t know what to do with it all Shed a tear for the memories you’ll have to hold onto forever But then , move on Move on with your
  21. I Hope ;
    22 Dec, 2015
    I Hope ;
    I hope you find someone who knows when you’re down and kisses you extra and holds you tight until you calm down and can sleep through the night and I hope you find someone who looks at you with their eyes wide open even when you look bummy and can’t even look at yourself in the mirror and when you ask them why they’re looking at you they tell you they wouldn’t want to be looking at anything else and I hope you find someone who loves you with everything they have and that you can love them
  22. You ;
    22 Dec, 2015
    You ;
    When I see you , I put a smile on my face and laugh a little longer than usual at jokes that probably weren’t funny...wanting you to think that my happiness doesn’t depend on you . I turn to one of my friends and suddenly become very interested in what they have to say...attempting to show that I have other friends in my life that fill the hole you dug . I talk to the boy sitting next to me...leaning closer to him than I would’ve before so that you can see I’m completely over you and can have
  23. Stars ;
    21 Dec, 2015
    Stars ;
    If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I bet they'd live a lot differently . When you look into infinity , you realize there are more important things than what people do all day.
  24. ...
    20 Dec, 2015
    …and maybe it’s better if I don’t tell you about the nights when closing my eyes is scarier than keeping them open and staring at the dark , consumed by  thoughts of failure and inadequacy . it’s not romantic , the way I worry about the future and the present and the past and , well , you understand . sadness and fear are not things to be proud of...they are there to overcome and to learn from of your strength (and  this you can be proud of) .  I am not a broken bird looking for loving hands to