1. 01 January 2019
    01 Jan, 2019
    01 January 2019
    HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! welcome 2019. I have been waiting for you.  I cannot believe that 2018 is officially over and it's the new year. Alhamdulillah. Well, let me start where I last left off and go on from there. My trip to North Carolina was great. Alhamdulillah. Omnya's family is amazing and treated me so well. I haven't eaten that good in a loooong time...seriously. It was so nice being with a Muslim family as it helped strengthen some of the things I was struggling with as a Muslim myself.
  2. Happy Holidays
    25 Dec, 2018
    Happy Holidays
    Hey guys! So I thought that after graduation I would have more time to blog about my life and things going on with me but I actually took the time to enjoy my winter break from both work and school since I am starting my Master's program in the Spring of 2019. But, things have been pretty good. Alhamdulillah. I cannot complain. Merry Christmas to all my Christian followers, and Happy Holidays to everyone else. Honestly, I don't have a problem not celebrating Christmas as I used to since I
    09 Dec, 2018
    Alhamdulillah! I cannot believe the day is officially here.  Graduation. I have been waiting for this day since I started college four years ago, but today is extra special to me since this time two years ago I was looking at a 1.9 GPA with no hopes or chances of graduating but here I am today graduating with above a 3.0 and walking across that stage with the biggest smile on my face. Alhamdulillah. I am eternally thankful. Well, I'm keeping this short and sweet as I have a lot to prepare for
  4. Happy Thanksgiving!
    22 Nov, 2018
    Happy Thanksgiving!
    11.22.2018  - holy crap it has been a good minute since I was last on here. it has been 6 months and 16 days since my last blog post to be exact. wow, I am horrible, lol.  between life, school, work (yes, I have a job now), and being a broke college student, I haven't been able to keep up blogging as I wanted too. plus, running your own website can become expensive. (having to pay for your own domain name, monthly payments for the actual website, blah blah blah). well, now I am back and I plan
  5. Jummah Mubarak!
    06 Apr, 2018
    Jummah Mubarak!
    Hey everyone. Happy Friday to you all. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day today. I mean it is the start of the weekend so who wouldn't be happy? I wish I could say the same. College literally does not let you have a life.  Making assignments due throughout the week as well as during the weekends.  Like why? But the only plus about college is that they give you a syllabus that has everything for the entire semester, so if you wanted to work ahead you could. I have a 13-16 page term paper
  6. Cultural Communications in the Arabian Peninsula
    23 Mar, 2018
    Cultural Communications in the Arabian Peninsula
    I cannot believe that it’s been over three months since my trip to Dubai. Getting to experience the Arabian Peninsula and everything it has to offer was such an amazing experience. It is one thing to learn about other cultures within the United States, but to actually experience another culture in a foreign country is a whole different experience.  My professor told me to take a travel journal along with me during my trip and write in it as the days go by so I can remember specific things and
  7. 03.22.2018
    22 Mar, 2018
    I am horrible.  how am I going to have a blog and not keep up with it? I can't blame it on school because I was on spring break last week. but I was intensively studying for Midterms the week before that. and your girl got all As on her exams. and a B on her research paper. man, I am so proud of myself and how I'm doing this semester. literally, two more semesters to go and then I will be a college graduate.  December 2018, please hurry. but then again don't. because I do not know what I am
  8. I'm Baaaaack!
    06 Mar, 2018
    I'm Baaaaack!
    18 days later... I feel like I've been gone forever. I would say I have been super busy but I honestly don't think I have been.  I mean I have been busy with midterms. buuuuut not anymore...thank God. I just had my last one yesterday...took it at like 3am. got a 90% on it, so I'm happy. so far I am so proud of myself and my grades. I am extremely proud of how well I did on my midterms: Women & Religion - 100% Research Methods: 84% Terrorism & Homeland Security: 90% Psychology of Women: 12-page
  9. its friday!
    16 Feb, 2018
    its friday!
    so much for posting "tomorrow" like I said I was going to do last week. lol. I got busy. surprise, surprise. I have been out of the house a lot more this week than I was last week. even when I was stuck at home I was busy doing things. I started working out again. lol, let us see how long that lasts. been busying myself with schoolwork.  so far your girl is kicking ass. gotta keep it up. been running around the place trying to get things done for this job.  I thought I finished everything on
  10. Friday Eve
    08 Feb, 2018
    Friday Eve
    look at me...letting a week go by without posting anything. I haven't really been active on Instagram either. Well, when I do not leave my house, I do not get dressed...so therefore no pictures of me are being taken. lol, I kid you not I be looking rough. but oh well. literally, the last time I was out was on Sunday for Super Bowl. although I haven't really left my house, I have been working. I take the time of doing nothing as chances to get ahead on school work. this girl is shooting for all
  11. proud hijabi
    01 Feb, 2018
    proud hijabi
    today is #WorldHijabDay and I am so happy to see all these wonderful women (some men too) from all over the world posting about it. it has been an interesting transition for me after I put on my hijab, but I thank all my wonderful friends and family for their kind words and support. thank you for seeing me for me, and not for what society has made Muslims out to be. I just loved reading all these posts from fellow hijabis about their hijab experiences and it just inspires me to always fight and
  12. #WorldHijabDay
    01 Feb, 2018
    I never knew how much hate existed in the world until I committed to my hijab...I started wearing my hijab in February of last year at the age of 21, but I did not fully commit to it until May. not many of my friends knew I was Muslim..I honestly thought it wasn’t a big deal. but when I first started to wear my hijab in February I was very adamant about not posting on social media because I did not want people to look at me differently...I was not ready for the negativity I was soon to receive.
  13. 01.30.2018
    30 Jan, 2018
    I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling 22. happy birthday to meeeee! weeell, I basically just woke up..don’t judge me but I stayed up until like 6 am watching Rugrats episodes on Nickelodeon. hey, it’s my birthday, why not?! Hamdan got me a cute little Carvel ice cream cake last night and sang me happy birthday in his horrible voice when the clock struck midnight. I don’t know what candles he got, but they just wouldn’t blow out. I don’t need a fancy dinner or a lot of presents on my birthday,
  14. Last Day Being 21
    29 Jan, 2018
    Last Day Being 21
    celebrating the last day of being a 21 year old...it’s crazy how another year has flown by yet again. how I’m going to be another year older. how I wish I was another year wiser. I’m honestly just now starting to figure my life out and it’s the scariest yet most beautiful thing ever. I just want to make a difference in life; I want to make my life worth living. my goal is to be a happier and healthier person..to focus on my wants and needs. It’s okay to be selfish sometimes. this year, I’m going
  15. PRO BOWL 2018
    28 Jan, 2018
    PRO BOWL 2018
    yesterday I attended my first ever NFL Football game. yes, all of my brothers have played football for as long as I can remember, but no, I do not know much about the game besides the basics the #NFLPROBOWL was so cool...seeing all these different players come together and just have fun made it an interesting experience for me. I mean the constant rain that Orlando decided to get yesterday was nice too...Alhamdulillah that Hamdan brought a poncho for me to wear. I was going for the NFC, but
  16. growing
    27 Jan, 2018
    until recently, before I would post a photo on Instagram I would ask myself: “is this worth posting? will I get many likes?” and it made me realize that at that point I was no longer posting for me..but for my followers and it made me sad. I wanted to get likes and compliments like the girls I would see on my spotlight page. I have been so worried about how others viewed me since I started wearing my hijab. time passed and I stopped caring what others thought. I stopped arguing with people
  17. good vibes only
    23 Jan, 2018
    good vibes only
    Alhamdulillah.  another great day today. spent another day with daddy. he took me down to Miami today to get some paperwork signed for school. Insha'Allah I get good news back in 3 weeks like my advisor said. I need nothing but good news right now. didn't realize how much I missed being on campus until today. literally just sat on campus for a good hour by the fountain next to our library and just thought about life. the good and bad.  walked around campus and just took it all in. I missed
  18. B I S M I L L A H
    20 Jan, 2018
    B I S M I L L A H
    today was actually a good day. spent the day with daddy. ran some errands; got some things for grandma. spent some time with her. came back home and helped out around the house. mama got groceries today...you know what that means. my fat butt is about to all up in the kitchen...day, afternoon and night. lol, I kid you not when I tell you that I am forever eating.  I have no idea how I am still skinny. welp, won't last long.  my 22nd birthday is in 10 days.. I'm getting old.  I have no idea what
  19. 17 January 2018
    17 Jan, 2018
    17 January 2018
    Bismillah. currently watching Harry Potter with my little brother. he joined me on movie 4 and we are now on movie 6. what great bonding time we're having. he actually wanted to stay and watch the following movies with me. everyone knows how much I love Harry Potter HPOD! so watching a marathon with me just melts my heart. man, I love my brother. today was a good day. and was yesterday. got schoolwork done. got so ahead in one of my classes I don't have anything due until April. FEELS SO GREAT!
  20. better days are coming
    12 Jan, 2018
    better days are coming
    ALHAMDULILLAH time sure flies by when you're having fun.. isn't that how the saying goes, right? I had a somewhat good start to the New Year. spent some quality family time in Tennessee with my brothers, parents and cousins. oh and my brother's best friend Jacob. my older brother and his girlfriend, as well as my grandma, aunt and her sons stopped by to see us. that was nice. it was cold as shit. SINGLE DIGITS! oh no, not for me..it's a good temp for visiting, but thats about it. went tubing and
  21. happy new year!
    01 Jan, 2018
    happy new year!
    welcome 2018! just another day full of stress and anxiety... found out that I used the remainder of my Florida Prepaid and I am not getting any more financial aid, so I'm in the hole to pay for classes and I have no way to do it.. I already owe money from my study abroad so that put a hold on my account.  I honestly do not know what to do.. I just do not know what to do anymore.  I'm jobless. carless. I am starting to loose all motivation that I have left. the only good thing that has come from
  22. emotions.
    31 Dec, 2017
    wow. I am just lost for words and overfilled with so many different emotions right now..I really do not know what to feel. I want to cry, but I am fighting back the tears. everything is just hitting me all at once at this moment in time. I have gone through so much this year..I just want it all to end. It actually all started towards the end of 2016 and carried on into the new year and has been haunting me ever since. many people do not know that I got arrested back in September of 2016...I
  23. happy new year
    31 Dec, 2017
    happy new year
    I have survived and I will continue to survive. Hit me, 2018. I’m more ready than I’ve ever been. You won’t be able to beat me.
  24. 18 ways to have a better 2018
    30 Dec, 2017
    18 ways to have a better 2018
    1. cut toxic people out of your life.  you do not have to put up with toxic people. cut them out where you can, make time for people who support you. 2. accept that you will fail.  knowing and accepting you will fail makes starting things so much easier and thats going to make 2018 a whole lot better. 3. digitally declutter. clear out your phone, clear space and move your photos to Google Photo, delete apps you don’t use, organise the item you use the most.  4. on that, try for Inbox Zero.
  25. breathe
    29 Dec, 2017
    some times it feels so hard to breathe. you struggle, and you struggle to get the air to come, but it won’t. next thing you know, it feels like the worlds falling apart around you. you start falling, but you’re standing up, and you wish you were falling. because my God, my God, that would be so much simpler than just that feeling of falling, that feeling of suffocating. that feeling that no matter what you do, you can’t stop it. breathe, just breathe. relax, if there’s nothing you can do, then
  26. seven things to remember
    28 Dec, 2017
    seven things to remember
    you may go through so many endings, so many that you cannot keep count of all of them and no matter how inevitable they are, every single one would still feel different than the rest; every ending would still feel foreign, like it is something you have never experienced before, and it is okay sometimes, that is just how it is sometimes, feeling things and experiencing them over and over cannot guarantee that they become familiar to you. do not be afraid to end things, to cut ties. do not be
  27. plans
    27 Dec, 2017
    Never underestimate a person with a prayer and a plan.
  28. Random Thought:
    26 Dec, 2017
    Random Thought:
    whenever I’m traveling, I always get tripped out at the fact that this is someone’s actual hometown  like they know every back road and how to get everywhere and they’ve probably had tons of memories in this city but I’m just someone passing by..
  29. Dubai 2017
    22 Dec, 2017
    Dubai 2017
    Alhamdulillah for everything. wow, this was such an amazing experience for me. I had an absolutely wonderful time here. I am so thankful for all the experiences. beyond grateful for getting to have this once in a lifetime opportunity. I would once again like to thank all the people who helped make this possible for me. I will forever cherish all the amazing memories that I’ve made with some pretty great people.
  30. hope this helps
    09 Dec, 2017
    hope this helps
    If you’re reading this and you’re not happy right now, you will be. I don’t know what you’re going through. Everyone has their own type of darkness that they’re trying to make sense of, but no matter how dark it gets, you’ll do it. Things will get better, you will get better. Life will become brighter, and you’ll look back on days like these when you couldn’t look forward to the next hour, let alone the next day.  When you do, you’ll smile, maybe even laugh, and it’ll hit you. You turned out
  31. my life
    07 Dec, 2017
    my life
    i prefer to tell my own story and draw my own finish line because last night at dinner my family was so on fire arguing with each other whether i’m going to end up alone or happily with three little kids who look exactly like me and have the energy of their father. i wanted to say, what if i end up in the in between? you know, where i’m alone but also very happy, just with my poetry at 6 in the evening while everyone’s having lovely family dinners, or maybe with three little kids who aren’t
  32. fall apart
    04 Dec, 2017
    fall apart
    Fall apart. Spill your tears. Lose your mind. Once you do that, you can build yourself up again.
  33. I think
    03 Dec, 2017
    I think
    I think every girl needs to love herself, regardless of anything. Like if you're having a bad day, if you don't like your hair, if you don't have the best family situation, it can be whatever, you have to love yourself and you can't do anything until you love yourself first.
  34. #DonateLife
    26 Nov, 2017
    I don’t think people realize how important organ donors are. I first hand witness the miracle of what someone’s donated organ can do for another life. I mean we’re no longer on this earth using them, why be selfish and not help someone else out? who knows, you might be that person that helps little Sally see for the first time or give Michael a new heart after his own failed. It’s just so amazing as to what our bodies can do. not pressuring anyone to do it, but I think everyone should be an
  35. 10.31.2017
    31 Oct, 2017
    9 years ago today I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer and I must say that since then I’ve been blessed with so many different opportunities, met so many wonderful people and took chances that I never thought I would take. yes cancer is a horrible thing and I cannot wait until we live in a world without it, but without it, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I kicked cancer’s ass and everyday is just another opportunity to make myself a better person. ------------ ​can’t believe 9 years ago on
  36. something to remember for when the nights get hard
    12 Oct, 2017
    something to remember for when the nights get hard
    Even your worst days only last 24 hours.