1. Happy Thanksgiving!
    22 Nov, 2018
    Happy Thanksgiving!
    11.22.2018  - holy crap it has been a good minute since I was last on here. it has been 6 months and 16 days since my last blog post to be exact. wow, I am horrible, lol.  between life, school, work (yes, I have a job now), and being a broke college student, I haven't been able to keep up blogging as I wanted too. plus, running your own website can become expensive. (having to pay for your own domain name, monthly payments for the actual website, blah blah blah). well, now I am back and I plan
  2. Jummah Mubarak!
    06 Apr, 2018
    Jummah Mubarak!
    Hey everyone. Happy Friday to you all. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day today. I mean it is the start of the weekend so who wouldn't be happy? I wish I could say the same. College literally does not let you have a life.  Making assignments due throughout the week as well as during the weekends.  Like why? But the only plus about college is that they give you a syllabus that has everything for the entire semester, so if you wanted to work ahead you could. I have a 13-16 page term paper
  3. 03.22.2018
    22 Mar, 2018
    I am horrible.  how am I going to have a blog and not keep up with it? I can't blame it on school because I was on spring break last week. but I was intensively studying for Midterms the week before that. and your girl got all As on her exams. and a B on her research paper. man, I am so proud of myself and how I'm doing this semester. literally, two more semesters to go and then I will be a college graduate.  December 2018, please hurry. but then again don't. because I do not know what I am
  4. I'm Baaaaack!
    06 Mar, 2018
    I'm Baaaaack!
    18 days later... I feel like I've been gone forever. I would say I have been super busy but I honestly don't think I have been.  I mean I have been busy with midterms. buuuuut not anymore...thank God. I just had my last one yesterday...took it at like 3am. got a 90% on it, so I'm happy. so far I am so proud of myself and my grades. I am extremely proud of how well I did on my midterms: Women & Religion - 100% Research Methods: 84% Terrorism & Homeland Security: 90% Psychology of Women: 12-page
  5. its friday!
    16 Feb, 2018
    its friday!
    so much for posting "tomorrow" like I said I was going to do last week. lol. I got busy. surprise, surprise. I have been out of the house a lot more this week than I was last week. even when I was stuck at home I was busy doing things. I started working out again. lol, let us see how long that lasts. been busying myself with schoolwork.  so far your girl is kicking ass. gotta keep it up. been running around the place trying to get things done for this job.  I thought I finished everything on
  6. Friday Eve
    08 Feb, 2018
    Friday Eve
    look at me...letting a week go by without posting anything. I haven't really been active on Instagram either. Well, when I do not leave my house, I do not get dressed...so therefore no pictures of me are being taken. lol, I kid you not I be looking rough. but oh well. literally, the last time I was out was on Sunday for Super Bowl. although I haven't really left my house, I have been working. I take the time of doing nothing as chances to get ahead on school work. this girl is shooting for all
  7. proud hijabi
    01 Feb, 2018
    proud hijabi
    today is #WorldHijabDay and I am so happy to see all these wonderful women (some men too) from all over the world posting about it. it has been an interesting transition for me after I put on my hijab, but I thank all my wonderful friends and family for their kind words and support. thank you for seeing me for me, and not for what society has made Muslims out to be. I just loved reading all these posts from fellow hijabis about their hijab experiences and it just inspires me to always fight and
  8. #WorldHijabDay
    01 Feb, 2018
    I never knew how much hate existed in the world until I committed to my hijab...I started wearing my hijab in February of last year at the age of 21, but I did not fully commit to it until May. not many of my friends knew I was Muslim..I honestly thought it wasn’t a big deal. but when I first started to wear my hijab in February I was very adamant about not posting on social media because I did not want people to look at me differently...I was not ready for the negativity I was soon to receive.
  9. 01.30.2018
    30 Jan, 2018
    I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling 22. happy birthday to meeeee! weeell, I basically just woke up..don’t judge me but I stayed up until like 6 am watching Rugrats episodes on Nickelodeon. hey, it’s my birthday, why not?! Hamdan got me a cute little Carvel ice cream cake last night and sang me happy birthday in his horrible voice when the clock struck midnight. I don’t know what candles he got, but they just wouldn’t blow out. I don’t need a fancy dinner or a lot of presents on my birthday,
  10. Last Day Being 21
    29 Jan, 2018
    Last Day Being 21
    celebrating the last day of being a 21 year old...it’s crazy how another year has flown by yet again. how I’m going to be another year older. how I wish I was another year wiser. I’m honestly just now starting to figure my life out and it’s the scariest yet most beautiful thing ever. I just want to make a difference in life; I want to make my life worth living. my goal is to be a happier and healthier person..to focus on my wants and needs. It’s okay to be selfish sometimes. this year, I’m going
  11. PRO BOWL 2018
    28 Jan, 2018
    PRO BOWL 2018
    yesterday I attended my first ever NFL Football game. yes, all of my brothers have played football for as long as I can remember, but no, I do not know much about the game besides the basics the #NFLPROBOWL was so cool...seeing all these different players come together and just have fun made it an interesting experience for me. I mean the constant rain that Orlando decided to get yesterday was nice too...Alhamdulillah that Hamdan brought a poncho for me to wear. I was going for the NFC, but
  12. growing
    27 Jan, 2018
    until recently, before I would post a photo on Instagram I would ask myself: “is this worth posting? will I get many likes?” and it made me realize that at that point I was no longer posting for me..but for my followers and it made me sad. I wanted to get likes and compliments like the girls I would see on my spotlight page. I have been so worried about how others viewed me since I started wearing my hijab. time passed and I stopped caring what others thought. I stopped arguing with people
  13. good vibes only
    23 Jan, 2018
    good vibes only
    Alhamdulillah.  another great day today. spent another day with daddy. he took me down to Miami today to get some paperwork signed for school. Insha'Allah I get good news back in 3 weeks like my advisor said. I need nothing but good news right now. didn't realize how much I missed being on campus until today. literally just sat on campus for a good hour by the fountain next to our library and just thought about life. the good and bad.  walked around campus and just took it all in. I missed
  14. B I S M I L L A H
    20 Jan, 2018
    B I S M I L L A H
    today was actually a good day. spent the day with daddy. ran some errands; got some things for grandma. spent some time with her. came back home and helped out around the house. mama got groceries today...you know what that means. my fat butt is about to all up in the kitchen...day, afternoon and night. lol, I kid you not when I tell you that I am forever eating.  I have no idea how I am still skinny. welp, won't last long.  my 22nd birthday is in 10 days.. I'm getting old.  I have no idea what
  15. 17 January 2018
    17 Jan, 2018
    17 January 2018
    Bismillah. currently watching Harry Potter with my little brother. he joined me on movie 4 and we are now on movie 6. what great bonding time we're having. he actually wanted to stay and watch the following movies with me. everyone knows how much I love Harry Potter HPOD! so watching a marathon with me just melts my heart. man, I love my brother. today was a good day. and was yesterday. got schoolwork done. got so ahead in one of my classes I don't have anything due until April. FEELS SO GREAT!
  16. better days are coming
    12 Jan, 2018
    better days are coming
    ALHAMDULILLAH time sure flies by when you're having fun.. isn't that how the saying goes, right? I had a somewhat good start to the New Year. spent some quality family time in Tennessee with my brothers, parents and cousins. oh and my brother's best friend Jacob. my older brother and his girlfriend, as well as my grandma, aunt and her sons stopped by to see us. that was nice. it was cold as shit. SINGLE DIGITS! oh no, not for me..it's a good temp for visiting, but thats about it. went tubing and
  17. happy new year!
    01 Jan, 2018
    happy new year!
    welcome 2018! just another day full of stress and anxiety... found out that I used the remainder of my Florida Prepaid and I am not getting any more financial aid, so I'm in the hole to pay for classes and I have no way to do it.. I already owe money from my study abroad so that put a hold on my account.  I honestly do not know what to do.. I just do not know what to do anymore.  I'm jobless. carless. I am starting to loose all motivation that I have left. the only good thing that has come from
  18. emotions.
    31 Dec, 2017
    wow. I am just lost for words and overfilled with so many different emotions right now..I really do not know what to feel. I want to cry, but I am fighting back the tears. everything is just hitting me all at once at this moment in time. I have gone through so much this year..I just want it all to end. It actually all started towards the end of 2016 and carried on into the new year and has been haunting me ever since. many people do not know that I got arrested back in September of 2016...I
  19. happy new year
    31 Dec, 2017
    happy new year
    I have survived and I will continue to survive. Hit me, 2018. I’m more ready than I’ve ever been. You won’t be able to beat me.
  20. 18 ways to have a better 2018
    30 Dec, 2017
    18 ways to have a better 2018
    1. cut toxic people out of your life.  you do not have to put up with toxic people. cut them out where you can, make time for people who support you. 2. accept that you will fail.  knowing and accepting you will fail makes starting things so much easier and thats going to make 2018 a whole lot better. 3. digitally declutter. clear out your phone, clear space and move your photos to Google Photo, delete apps you don’t use, organise the item you use the most.  4. on that, try for Inbox Zero.
  21. breathe
    29 Dec, 2017
    some times it feels so hard to breathe. you struggle, and you struggle to get the air to come, but it won’t. next thing you know, it feels like the worlds falling apart around you. you start falling, but you’re standing up, and you wish you were falling. because my God, my God, that would be so much simpler than just that feeling of falling, that feeling of suffocating. that feeling that no matter what you do, you can’t stop it. breathe, just breathe. relax, if there’s nothing you can do, then
  22. seven things to remember
    28 Dec, 2017
    seven things to remember
    you may go through so many endings, so many that you cannot keep count of all of them and no matter how inevitable they are, every single one would still feel different than the rest; every ending would still feel foreign, like it is something you have never experienced before, and it is okay sometimes, that is just how it is sometimes, feeling things and experiencing them over and over cannot guarantee that they become familiar to you. do not be afraid to end things, to cut ties. do not be
  23. plans
    27 Dec, 2017
    Never underestimate a person with a prayer and a plan.
  24. Random Thought:
    26 Dec, 2017
    Random Thought:
    whenever I’m traveling, I always get tripped out at the fact that this is someone’s actual hometown  like they know every back road and how to get everywhere and they’ve probably had tons of memories in this city but I’m just someone passing by..